-- written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s --
Not "Found in Old St. Paul's Church"! -- see below

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

GONE

Gone

It was a breezy morning and the wind seems to caress my skin very softly. The sun is rising in the East and spreading its golden ray all over the world and not even once inch is excluded form its generous and lively glitter. The ants that never stop from working is lining up on the dead tree cheerfully say hello to the bright and shiny day. The damp and rough bark is a very good track for them to walk on. But me, I’m walking this path all alone with no destination and no intention to find one.
The jogging track is quiet. It is a good morning to do a lot of activities but the chilled weather has covered the human with thousands of pleasure in their sleep and they are all now sailing to the island of dreams. Dreams that no one knows will ever be true or not. As for me, dream is the last thing I need. Dream has brought me here on this splendid morning that everyone has always wished for. I follow my steps wherever it takes me. My feet is my master when this numbness is covering me and I will only get myself back on when I am too far drowned in my never ending loneliness and fantasy with no edge.
Sometimes, I wonder why am I doing this to myself. I should have something better to do other than reminiscing for something I have lost and will never ever get back. I cannot lead my own way, I cannot bring the light to my life, and I cannot see the way I did before. I do not have hope. Sigh. The cool breeze comes again and it soothes my tensed skin form the hot burning sunshine. My thought is nowhere around me. It’s everywhere. The calm surface of the lake seems to reflect my expression, empty and lost, but deep inside there are just so many things that is moving rapidly, non-stop like the particles bombing in the heart of the water.
The day is getting hotter. The burning sun is more than a fire ball that will burn everything in its way. The damp weather just now has become very dry. The chirping birds on the tree have left its nest to find what’s left the earth has to offer. Mother Nature has never disappointed any of us. We always disappoint her. She gives her everything form the ground to the sky, they are all belong to us and it is up to us to use it our way. We always want to be pretentious and indulgent and end up wasting what we have owned. I have lost what I have and this is not my first time and I’m sure it won’t be the last for me to let people down. I let my precious belongings slipped through my fingers even I know that I’m losing it. I did not do anything to stop it. Classic me. In fact, it is a classic attitude of human beings to let things they own slip away swiftly like the wind.
I used to have my own life. A very good and wonderful life that anyone in the world will trade anything for it. Life that filled with love, laugh, care, joy and happiness. Life was beautiful and I’m willing to give up everything to get it back in return but time envies me and it’s all now gone. Gone and dead. I have no more life to live as she left. One second, she was here right in front of my eyes, laughing joyfully, holding my hands firmly and speaks the language of love. Her voice is serenade that generates energy in my muscle and sinew and keeps me going all the time. Her smile is my drug that keeps my heart beating and keeps me addicting to her. Her touch is like smooth and soft like silk that appeases me at sleep. Her kiss is soft and tender that no man will stop craving for it once he gets it. Now, she is gone. “I miss her”.
She is no angel. She is magnificent and demure and she’s a girl of mine. I do not own her, she is lent to me and now that she’s gone and never come back. At one point, I wonder why did she come into my life if she wanted to leave me all alone, abruptly. The long walk has given me the answer and the numbness has made me even more sensitive than I ever was before.
I’m still walking this path, collecting the memories that we have carved together. Memories that will bring her to me no matter where I go or what I do. Every steps that I make, brings me closer to her. I know the journey will not be easy for me to go through alone but somewhere along the way, she’ll be waiting for me with arms wide open, welcoming me to her world. It will be a long and lonely road, I know. But to get to her, I will give everything that I have and I know the juice is worth squeezing for. And when I get to her, all the burden on my shoulder will turn into colourful butterflies that will colour our world with thousands of happiness that will eternally be ours.
Quietly, the sun sets and leaves the world to the night that full with mystery. Loneliness will again fill the night and the darkness will kill the joy and happiness and only suffer and despair left. I will survive the night just to see another day with sunlight and the rewards it has to offer for the journey to see my loved one.

THINKING OF YOU

Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one,
I still got the seed You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best? You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips,
I taste your mouth, oh! (Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in,
I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

so, what is it this time? thinking of someone??yes....the song lyric id pretty much similar to my situation except i dont regret about anything. i juz think of someone that i dont deserve and that someone is not available and that someone is making me falling for that someone self. is it that bad to fall for someone u dont deserve or someone unavailable. someone attached is what i mean. sigh...... i dont know why r those attached people keep on coming to me and make me fall for them and in the end i'll be the one who will suffer the pain and get hurt and stuck up in my small room thinking of that someone and blaming myself for not be able to restrain myself from falling for that unavailable someone. it sounds stupid, no actually i am stupid for allowing myself to get emotionally involved with that someone that has made it clear that we're only for bonk. yeah bonk, that's all. i think i must have my own rules for dating and bonk. i'm a very sexual person and i hardly get emotionally involved with my sex partner. but sometimes i do let things out of control and resulting frustration and guilty pleasure which is making me feel even worse about my pathetic single life that is clearly not going well so far. i think i should stop thinking bout others and now focus more on me. yeah me.

i just dont get it why are those people who come to me tend to be attached. and some of them are begging for my attention instead of their partner. i try to sit in their seat, but i see things differently from them. i see myself kind of doing something to attract my partner's attention rather than others.and i see myself avoiding others just to get to my partner. hurmmmmm weird but that's how i see things. is it my lens or is there anyone else see things the way i do? i wish i'm not alone. i cant be alone. there must be someone else out there to see things the way i do. hopefully.

well now i am still trying to get rid of this attached- unavailable- romantic- heart filling- making me thinking of that someone- person out of my mind. not totally because we promised to be friends. i just want the feelings to go away and be replaced by something more to friendship.

i wish.........

stolen.......

STOLEN

Churaliya he (Stolen)

You were my eyes when i couldn't see,
you were my air when i couldn't breathe,
but you always knew what you meant to me,
(yeaah.ah,ah)
You were my strength when i was down,
and you made me humble when i wouldn't bow,
I held on to your promise that you'd be around,
(ah,ah...ah,ah)

Where were you when i was alright,
tell me, did you knew I was alright,
you, left me thinking I'd be alright,
wont you come back to me,
Ohhh..
It's crazy but i'm falling apart,
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred,
It's crazy girl wherever you are,
you stole, my heart

It's crazy but I'm going insane,
feeling lost confused and ashamed,
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain,
you stole, my heart

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,

I was feeling lost in my own world,
neglecting your needs only once girl,
If only we could try again once more,
ohhh..(Ohh..)
Now It's the same sad story that we all know,
how lovers make mistakes watch it all blow,
now i don't wanna be the one to let it all go.... nooo



(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,
(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

No man can live without blood running through his veins,
(through his veins)
and it's hard to remember the summer now here is rain
I don't know how much longer that i can wait
It's a thin line... between love and hate,
Oh-whoa-whoaaaa...

It's crazy but i'm falling apart,
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred,
It's crazy girl wherever you are,
you stole, my heart

It's crazy but I'm going insane,
feeling lost confused and ashamed,
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain,
you stole, my heart

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,
(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,

(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

so this time, what has been stolen? definitely not money, well if money is stolen, i wont b writing to u. car?hurmmm i dont have one, but i my car is stolen, i will go to the police station. it's my
HEART.
how can it be stolen?have i been neglecting it? or may be because i take care of it too much that it rebels. there's no certainty but one thing for sure, my heart is stolen. i know and i'm fully aware that it is slipping away through my fingers but i do nothing to avoid. i let it go. fall into the wrong hand. not that the person is bad or ruthless, but that person is too sweet. so weet and making me feel so good. well i should not complain if it makes me feel good, should i? now here's the catch, this person is someone else's lover. now you guys know. it's never easy to fall for the wrong person. and to be honest, my heart is not stolen, but i hand it to that person. i think he accepts it but not in the way that i wish. hopefully one day soon he'll see more than i am now and by that time, my heart will be stolen in the way i wish it to be by the right person at the right time.......
I PRAY FOR THAT

DENIAL

hurmmmm.....strong word......many people r having this without knowing that they r. i'm one of those who r lucky enough to know that i'm in this state of uncertainty. i always know what i want. i never really care bout what people say or the consequences of my irrational and greedy action to have something that i want. well i cant really call it greedy bcoz i grab the chance that pass by right in front of my eyes while i'm fully energised. so, it's a natural reaction of human being to be competitive and optimist. i am. i always am. it's a bit inhumane but natural. animal instinct that humans adopt and claim it to be theirs.

so what is this denial in me all about? falling for someone. that not wrong. the fact that the person is emotionally attached to someone and that peerson loves the lover so deeply. let's call the person L. so, this L person has a lover which is away (of course somewhere on earth). so i met L n i'm fully aware of L's status. at first i wish it's a total physical affection and temporary pleasure that will go away juz like that by the wind. unluckily, i broke my own rule (well never been stated but i hav my rules). no hang out wif ur physical partner. sigh. people make mistake n it cant b undone. so as i try to move on, not trying to avoid the mistake, i kept on doing it for the past one week. juz in one week. i have developed a thin stupid layer of something close to love. not yet there but almost there. i'm not trying to get there but i wish to b there...somehow.................

so, this thing that keeps me awake is making me sick now. i told L. i let it out of my chest, wishing it will go away juz like water flowing down the drain. smoothly. but it's not simple. i have expectations. n that makes it even more complicated that i expected it to be. COMPLICATED. yes, everyone hates complication but it happens. now it's my turn to swim in it. to get ashore. there's no guaranty i'll b safe but if i struggle a little harder, i might have increased the chance to b safe but on which is another complication for me to look into. arghhhhhhhh complicated, it is. so, L responded very well but not didnt meet my expectation. frustration n embarrassment. no!not embarrassment. i cant get embarrassed for telling how do i feel bout someone. i hav the right to express my preference n feelings towards someone that i feel deserve my attention. (or actually i'm trying to get attention from-denial). this will b over in no time hopefully.

Over and Over
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (Alicia Keys)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (Keyshia Cole)
It’s the way it is


Baby I remember
a time when we were so secure but
Now it’s like December
when you say that I’m so insecure and
I gotta get away
cause’ your making me weak
It’s keeping me trapped (keeping me trapped)
I gotta be a fool
sitting here tryna get that old thing back (thing back oh)
Oh


You use to keep your word
was one who always did what you said
You use to speak to me so sweet
with something caring to say
Oh, you don’t even try no more
Oh, you don’t even care no more


I don't wanna love you
don’t wanna need you
just wanna leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)


It’s like I hate to love ya
a charade we play time after time (time after time)
It's like ya love to see me
confused and a mess I’m losing my mind (I’m losing my mind)
I gotta get away
cause’ your making me weak
It’s keeping me trapped (keeping me trapped)
I gotta be a fool
sitting here tryna get that old thing back (thing back oh)
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh


You use to keep your word
was one who always did what you said
You use to speak to me so sweet
with something caring to say
Oh, you don’t even try no more
Oh, why you don’t care no more


I don't wanna love you
don’t wanna need you
just wanna leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
Hey


LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (La,La,La,La)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (No I don’t wanna here it no more)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (All the lies, Oh)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (You, You, You use to)


You use to keep your word (hey)
was one who always did what you said (baby you cared)
You use to speak to me so sweet (so sweet)
with something caring to say (oh)
Oh, you don’t even try no more
Oh, why you don’t care no more


I don't (I don't) wanna love you
don’t wanna (no) need you
just wanna (I wanna) leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (Hey)


I don't (Oh) wanna love you
don’t wanna need you
just wanna (don’t wanna) leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (Can it be over?)

Over and Over!

this song has not much to do with my situation but somewhere in the lyrics, i dedicate it to L. hope u'r not reading this.....

THIS STATE OF DENIAL WILL END SOON





that's my promise.hopefully i wont break it.




mwahxxxx
adam

........heartless.............

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know..
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

hurmmmmm where do i start this.....
so many words in the world to describe bout this stupid destructive feeling that keeps me falling apart everytime i think bout it. i wanna have something that i used to have. something everyone wanna have but almost half of them failed and crumble in a very deep idiot n irreparable condition. broken. soon i'll be joining those people. i can avoid it. i should avoid it. i would avoid it. in only i'm wise enough. but i'm too dumb, juz like the others. well everyone is a fool whne it comes to this unconditional thing. yeah unconditional that makes lots of people drowned for the temporary sweetness that only comes for a short moment to kill the people's heart. end up heartless.

i dont wanna be heartless. i'm a heartful person. i'm overflow with affection. i need to share it. i hav to share it. i must share it. but i havent yet found the right person or may be the timing is wrong for the right ones. or there will never be right time for the right ones. or i'm not meant to have it. i think, i'll end up heartless..............

ugly,unpretty and unattractive........

She’s so big hearted
But not so remarkable
Just an ordinary humble girl
Expecting nothing as we’re made to think
It’s a pretty person’s world


But you are beautiful
And you better go show it
So go look again
You gotta be true to your own
If you really wanna go to the top
Do you really wanna win
Don’t believe in leaving normal
Just to satisfy demand

Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly


Well you are fresh
Your face is fabulous
Don’t forget you’re one of a kind
When nobody’s checking the deeds you’ve done
And nobody’s hearing your cries
You make all the fashion statements
Just by dressing up your mind


And if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly
And see the beauty in ugly


Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly
And see the beauty in ugly

When I was 7

They said I was strange

I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same

I asked my parents if I was OK

They said you're more beautiful

And that's the way they show they wish

They had your smile

So my confidence was up for a while

I got real comfortable with my own style

I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same

And we only get judged by what we do

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

So are you

So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared

That I was shorter than everyone there

People made me feel like life was unfair

And I did things that made me ashamed

Cos I didn't know my body would change

I grew taller than them in more ways

But there will always be the one who will say

Something bad to make them feel great

People are all the same

And we only get judged by what we do

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

So are you

So are you

People are all the same

And we only get judged by what we do

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

So are you

So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody

And never realises how it affects somebody

And you bet it won't be forgotten

Envy is the only thing it could be

Cos people are all the same

(The same, the same)

And we only get judged by what we do

(What we do, yeah, yeah)

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then (Yeah, you)

So are you

So are you

People are all the same

(Oh, oh, oh)

And we only get judged by what we do

(What we do, yeah)

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

(Yeah, so are you)

So are you

So are you

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes

Make you feel unpretty too

I was told I was beautiful

But what does that mean to you

Look into the mirror who's inside there

The one with the long hair

Same old me again today (yeah)

My outsides look cool

My insides are blue

Every time I think I'm through

It's because of you

I've tried different ways

But it's all the same

At the end of the day

I have my self to blame

I'm just trippin

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can't look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

I'll make you feel unpretty too

Never insecure until I met you

Now I'm bein stupid

I used to be so cute to me

Just a little bit skinny

Why do I look to all these things

To keep you happy

Maybe get rid of you

And then I'll get back to me (hey)

My outsides look cool

My insides are blue

Everytime I think I'm through

It's because of you

I've tried different ways

But it's all the same

At the end of the day

I have myself to blame

Keep on trippin

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

I'll make you feel unpretty to(I'll make u feel unpretty too)

Oh oh oh oh oh

Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)

Oh oh oh oh oh

Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

I'll make you feel unpretty too

100 but not enuff.......

001. Name → adam aldine
002. Nickname(s)→ adam
004. Zodiac sign → capricorn
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary → tadika KEMAS
007. Middle School → SKPJ
008. High School → SMKAW, SMKTM, SESTER
009. College School → KMK,uitm
010. Hair color → black
011. Long or short → short
012. Loud or Quiet → depends
013. Sweats or Jeans → jeans
014. Phone or Camera → phone with camera
015. Health freak → all the time
016. Drink or Smoke? → none
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes
018. Eat or Drink → both
019. Piercings → none
020. Tattoos → none


FIRSTS:

023. First piercing →never
024. First best friend → reen, syaza, ecah, ayu, nolly, Q
025. First award → can't recall
26. First crush → standard 6
027. First pet → miki
028. First big vacation → bangkok, chiang mai, pattaya in a month
030. First big birthday → never(who cares anyway)


CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → butterscotch bread
050. Drinking → plain water
052. I'm about to → sleep
053. Listening to → supermassive black hole
054. Plans for today → go swimming then MP
055. Waiting for → the right one

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → a lot
059. Want to get married? → yes, after 30
060. Careers in mind → supermodel


WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?

068. Lips or eyes → eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
074. Sensitive or loud→ less for both
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → neither both


HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → plenty
081. Ran away from home → no way
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → yeah
083. Killed somebody → if it's innocent
084. Broken someone's heart → unluckily yes
085. Been arrested → never
087. Cried when someone died → yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → always
090. Miracles → sometimes
091. Love at first sight → yes
092. Heaven → yes.
093. Santa Claus → may b
094. Tooth Fairy→ never
095. Kiss on the first date→ yes


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes,
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → nope, but i'm grateful to reach this stage
099. Do you believe in God → 100%
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people→ no






i juz pick this up from my friend's page.....
so the numbering is wrong....
not because i dont know how to count, but i juz want it to be that way(actually too lazy to renumber).

tree

It is a windy afternoon,
The sun is over the moon,
Firmly standing, there you are,
Under the moon, under the star,
Your hands never stopped waving,
Your fingers never stopped growing,
Follow the rhythm of the wind blowing,
You never move, never walk, never step,
Toes in the ground, that’s how you’re attached,
Stormy day, don’t scare you,
Apart of the nature, that’s you,
Green is the sign that you’re strong,
Whatever comes in the way, you hold yourself down,
Thousands of wrinkles on your skin,
Dark, coarse and hideous yet graceful and lovely,
Under your shades, I sit,
The place where lovers come to meet,
Thousand years you live,
Millions of history you watched,
You keep the world spinning,
You keep the circle going,
In autumn you’re sick, in winter you’re dead,
In spring you’re back, in summer you’re blessed.

It’s not easy. Nothing is easy in this life and it will always be so until the end of the world. We are given five senses and some are gifted with six but still we are unable to do things perfectly well. What is wrong with us? Interesting question to be asked but how can we determine the cause is a mystery that we are all still try to find. Is it in you? Or me? Or person next to you who knows the answer? We never know.
This week we played a little game in the class. We had to pair up and one of us will have to cover our eyes. The tables were arranged haphazardly and our partner will be waiting for us across the class. We need to listen to the instruction from our partner to get across the class through the haphazardly arranged tables. It was fun and interesting but at the same time we learn bout using our other senses if we lose any one of the five senses that we have. So, the class was about our senses and I love it because I’m a very sensitive person (at least that’s what I feel).
Well just like other classes before, we had something to do again in this class. We were asked to write a poem describing something that we chose but we cannot mention the name of the thing in our poem. At first, we found it quite hard to write it but as we slowly move on, we managed to write the draft. I chose to write on tree. I managed to finish writing the draft early so I quickly went to show it to Ms. Yates. I think my poem is quite simple and easy to understand (which is so me). Thank God, Ms. Yates had not said that much about my poem except there are a few parts which I have to improve and add some more here and there to make the poem long. She also asked me to add more the characteristic of tree in my poem so that the poem will be more understandable and interesting. I used a lot of personification in the poem because I think, that’s the best way to make my poem is readable and easy to understand. Que struggled a lot to finish the poem and this was my first time to see him working that hard to do assignment and too bad he was criticized badly by Ms. Yates (constructive of course).
I felt happy today because I did well for the poem. Oh! Before I forget, I chose to write about tree because for me, trees are useful and they contribute to people’s life a lot. I wanted to be like the trees. They are always there to help people and they are willing to sacrifice themselves for others benefit. May be I was born as a tree in my previous life. Who knows! =)

i'm a tree.

mwahxxxx

~~adam~~

r we safe?

It's not so easy lovin' me

It gets so complicated

All the things you gotta be

Everything's changing

But you're the truth

I'm amazed by all your patience

Everything I put you through

And when I'm about to fall

Somehow you're always waiting

Your open arms to catch me

You're gonna save me from myself

From myself, yes

You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch

Well some guys have shown me aces

But you got that royal flush

I know it's crazy every day

Well tomorrow may be shaky

But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying

'Cause when I start to crumble

You know how to keep me smiling

You always save me from myself

From myself, myself

You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard

But you've broken all my walls

You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness

Is what I need to make me

A better woman To myself

To myself, myself

You're gonna save me from my

Myself


*Christina Aguilera*






This is a very powerful song to me. I listen to this song over and over again and I never get bored listening to this song. The wordings are just perfect. It is a song that a woman sing to her husband that has made her life better than it was before. She feels safe with the man and she appreciates what he has done for her to make her who she is now.
I know this song is sung by a woman but as a human being, I believe that I have the right to sing it to my loved one who has been there all the time for me to cherish the joy and to share the sadness. It never was and never will be easy to live alone in this world and to have someone who loves us just the way we are, priceless.
To my love, even you do not know how much I love you, but trust me, I will always love you just as much as you love me. ♥

hurmmm........sentimental n romantic....they r juz in me....my close friends(u r one of them reen) said that i can make people melt for me easily....i dont hav to say a word, juz some move that i make is enuf to make people give their heart away to me. i dont know how far is the truth but i never tried...well u know how karma works........i dont want to hurt people bcoz i dont wanna b hurt(even i get hurt many times b4).i dont mind....better 4 me to remain patient n there will always good thing come in my way. yeah good things like good exam result, or good friends, or good allowance from my parents(i'm talking bout u both mom n dad) n good siblings (yeahh all my SISTERS) n good lecturers (even i'm not teacher's pet) n good health n good body figure(i know i need to lose some more weight n work out) n there r so much more good things to come my way.....(hopefully).....

but u know life isnt all about good n beautiful, bear in mind that there will always bad n 'ugly' things to happen in life(GOD take them away from me).

no matter how hard we try to avoid them there r juz there rite in front of us, waiting for us to pick them up. arghhhh i wish i can b safe all the time but even if i have 100 bodyguards on my side (hopefully all of them r hot n hot n hot) still there's no guaranty that i'll b safe from all the bad n 'ugly' stuff.

anyway, life goes on n this is me. hurt n survived n hopefully i will always b so.....

daaaaaaaaa

mwahxxx

~~adam~~

i always KNOW!!!!!!!

I am a boy who knows what he wants in life and at least I won’t regret the decision that I have made.
It was my 22nd birthday last 19th January. One year older I am and I am grateful to the Merciful for giving me another year to live in even I have to go through lots of turbulence. That how life is and should be and will always be and all we can do is to live it to the fullest, our way. It’s been a year of challenge and strives for me last year. I broke up, I dated few people, gain and lose weight, get injured and get healed, and a lot more that I think need not to be listed here. If I were to list those things that have happened to me in years back, I’m going to need to write a novel bout it. “Years of Triumphs and Turbulences”. That does not sound that bad at all. May be one day soon, after I managed to get all my dreams come true, I should write a book on that title. And I’m sure I will have to remember all the things that I have learnt in this class.
No birthday celebration for me and I’m quite puzzled why did not I want to celebrate it. I am not a Mormon, that’s for sure. May be because I have never ever celebrated my birthday and that makes me less interested to celebrate it (last year did not count because my aunt hold a surprise party for me). The worst part is, I don’t know how to celebrate it. My friends asked me to throw a party but I don’t know how to do it. Well I watched ‘My Super Sweet 16” on MTV but that’ll be too much for me to do. Hurmmm it’s ok. I’m going to try to have it next year but at the age of 23, will that be fine? We’ll see how it is going to be. I’m thinking of beach party on my birthday. Yes, beach sounds fun and I love fun stuff and one person that can’t be excluded is Querina (you know who that person is Ms. Yate). He’ll be the party kicker and I’m going to make sure that he’ll be there on that party because I am having a surprise for him. Oh, I love surprises and hopefully he’s going to love it more than I do. =P

well anyway, bday is the last thing that in my list that i wanna celebrate. well it's not i dont appreciate my birth to the world but i juz hav no i dea what to do on my bday. supposedly i had my 21st bday celevration grand and happening but since i broke up wif A, so i didnt celebrate it. how to celebrate bday?may b there is someone who writes a book on that subject. u know 4 a dummy like me, of course there are few more like me( i really wish there are except mormon)hahaahhha.....hurmm i guess i'm juz gonna buy a slice of cake for myself n eat it in my room and sing a bday song for myself......classic me.....alone, homey n eccentric....hey at least i live my life the way i want it.....lame!!!!!!

it's ok.....(to whom did i say that?)hahahahhaaa

my life is mine and no one can ever ruin it.

...............i live the i want so u guys out there(even u'r not reading this blog) don mess with me!!!!!(with a smile)