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hey y'all....hurmmm it's been a very long time since i last wrote here...well been so bz with life....not much i can do to make myself more
available to write here but now i by all means making a huge effort to write.....
well where else i can write if not here.....of course other than
writing my long and boring assignment, here is the next destination for me to express what i think i wanna say.....
previously i was so damn bz doing a wedding...it was a great experience...i love it n i wanna do it
again next time...hunting for new project now....other than my study,
n my banquet job n my family, this new thing has given me
a new passion towards what to enjoy in life......yeah obviously i'm single n totally available so not so much
obligaiotns for me like i was b4....obligations to lover....yeah cliche but thing is such....so the wedding...it
was good n fun doing it except the part where i dont get enuf sleep n hav to work so damn hard that made me look like a mummy(well dont try to imagine it) but those bittersweet of it....but after all is done,dissapointment came in the way as the groom cut the payment here n there n made my life become even more miserable n totally damaged.......
again that's what we hav to face.....dissatisfaction........well deal it professionally n pretend like u dont care......lie to urself but sometimes things has to b forgotten n let it go....
so in order to
indulge ourselves, me n my friends plan a trip to penang n terengganu(not really a plan) n we had quite a lot of fun....when i say fun means very very fun.....huh cant wait to have that time off again....hopefully......i hav the chance.....now bout my love life.....well it was not easy,it is not easy n i think it never will.....i hav to admit dating people are kinda hard to do n frustration is a must to happen when it comes to going out with people that we barely know or we juz think that we know that person........lying to ourselves.....i dated this one person...it started like usual from a dating site,we exchanged phone number,texting each other for some time then going out for date hurmmmmm boring!!!!!but that's how it goes.....the difference that i do this time around in this game i call love, that person (ok i name the person F) is not as good as others that i dated b4....good here
is in the aspect of look or to b precise body figure...i dont know, i juz fall for F juz like that...may b the words,attitude,sincerity, or i dont know....but i somehow fall for F even most of the characteristic that i listed for my potentiAl lover is less than 5 in F......weird right this love trhing but is happened.....i had quite an expectation to bring our relationship to the next level bcoz i was so comfortable with F....i was myself....i had fun.....i'm in control.....n i love the feeling......F is definitely a lover material person.....
but again failure came to say hi to me.....juz soon as i established the relationship, things seems to crumble.....we had argument which started small but bcoz of some words, F pissed me off n i juz walked away....so classic me to walk away juz like that but i cant pretend that i'm not hurt.....i'm totally offended n i do what i think the best for me....walk away......chicken but wise
that's
what i call it.....my action....
may b i was
overreacted or too much but juz consider that we weren't meant to b together.....at this very moment, the memory of my ex come to take place n take me to the sky.....fly n yeah not really in reality but i somehow njoy it.....the idea of going back to my ex comes cross into my mind but after a very deep thinking n considering that we've been ex for almost 8 months since then, i sont think it's a good idea....single again....this is definitely will b the longest time for me to b single n available n hot.......yeah hot n single, that's what i am now....a bit arrogant but juz to comfort myself n gain my confidence to love again....
wish i were able to b so bold and daring to go out n date more but at the moment,better to keep them all close as friends n may b i can later decide which one is the best for me, myself n i n that lucky person....
next time i'm gonna make sure that it wont b all about or that person....it will
always b about US>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
TIME
~~helleccentric~~
