what am i????

i wonder......what am i????

hey, i 'm so much alive. i'm so damn loving this skin. i cant wish for more than this. i'm blessed, thank God. Alhamdulillah.

as i'm living this life for more than two decades since then, i think i met quite a big number people n i believe, people r born to b different from each other. like me, i'm eccentric, plain, average n wuteva.....well there r so many type of people out there that has so mch thing to learn bout them. like native people, urban, rural, teenagers, elderly, kids n a lot more to b listed n it takes foever for us to understand every single person on this earth. like me myself, a teenage.student.working student.degree student.a son.only son in the family.rural family.too much to classify bout me...i can b in many groups that belongs to the society. so actually what am i?huhuhu i myself r now wondering what am i. i lived on this earth more than 21 years but still cant figure it out what am i.people out there, do u know what u r?hav u ever wondered why r u all here?what should we b doing?when should we act?when will we b terminated?what should we achieve in our life?i dont know whether these question has ever crossed ur mind but for me, these questions kinda bothering me, well may b not bother but they almost everyday come across my mind n it makes me think bout what is my life worth for. what should i contribute?to whom should i contribute?when should i contribute n most of all when will i b stopped from contributing. life's short but there r too many things to do.sleeping alone need at least 6hours a day.left 18 hours.having meal at least 3 hours in total. working from 8 to 5p.m already 9 hours.left 6 hours. spending time wif family, resting, watching news, entertainment.n that's it.is that life is all about?hurmmm looks like we hav to optimized our time.every single second is too precious to b wasted. not much we can do bout it. so far no device to stop the time but in the future no idea.,ay b there'll b time machine or anti ageing pills that can stop ageing n make people live longer.but there'll b a lot of things will b unbalance.if there r too many people on earth, the space will b very limited.huhhhhhh(sigh)....life is complicated.but we cant sit back n juz follow what life has brought us to.we must at least try to chase the time(dont stop the time coz u can never do so) n accomplish as much thing as u can in ur life si that ur life will b more precious n every day in ur life, u'll hav something to remember. it might b small but still u hav something in a day that makes u think bout it n say to urself, "i made it"........so guys let's start thinking bout what r we, bcoz only that question can make u think of what r u going to do....

start thinking now!!!!!!

mwahxxx

~~adam~~

the next day~~~~

another day......

how's today?well let's start with going to club.well last nite i went to club,yeah it's been a while since i last went there....it's quite good to b there....long time i didnt get such attention or i should say eyes on me....huhuhu...i cant help myself from smiling to those people.they hav this look on their face that makes me feel so amused n it tickles my heart somehow....to put in a word---- 'starved'----i hope u guys understand this...well it't not wrong for me to make them feel good bout themselves,a smile that's all i gave n a little flirtatious look on them.i'm juz being a little notty. i like being notty n that's me. ok done wif that notty part....dance floor is getting more crowded n me n my frenz squeeze through the crowd n we're in.the song was so damn good.it triggered me to go crazy n i almost forgot that my foot is hurt.huhuhu it went crazy n i even got up on the podium. i was overwhelmed n my frenz has gotten out of their mind. no more mr guy next door n no more mr.sweet baby...hihiihi...its funny to see n to experience how can music make people lose control n got out of their mind.well somehow it was enjoyable. i went jogging earlier that evening but i was still able to stand up almost 1 n a half hour dancing non stop like it was my own show in my own world tha i will always call 11th kingdom.fantasy.......

finished clubbing, we went to hav some drinks but unluckily i cant stay for long coz got something to do n i hav to drag not,literally, my fren out of the restaurant n we headed home.arrived at home at 4 n sleep at 5....not much sleep but still hav to wake up at 8 n do this n that n time is 9.30...time to leave for the briefing.hell day i was not required to go for the briefing as i havent registered yetvfor the extra curricular activities.what a waste.my sleeping time n my all time spent there to wait for my frenz.well kinda stupid but it's ok...at least i was there to see som hot stuff parading around the campus n feeling good bout themselves.wuteva!!!!but somehow they deserve to b praised coz they'r so confident with their assets.yeah assets.....guys, live ur life to the fullest.....

single.......boring, alone and ------------- i dont know what more to say bout my single life.sometimes i feel like i enjoy my single life very much but somewhere in my heart i feel like something's missing.yeah something that i call love.care.touch.pamper.something that makes me feel more secured n safe.something that can slow me down in my crazy life.something that makes life worth living everyday.something that i wanna do everyday in my life. something that keeps my feeling occupied.something..................................................................or i should say everything is all bout love.it's not that i dont hav anyone coming to me,in fact i hav people in line coming n begging for me(not to b arrogant or snobbish but fact), but i juz cant accept them.there will always b something that turns me off n makes me tired of searching n yeah, i stop searching now, let fate work for me, if happen for me to love again, i will but when is it?i cant tell.let juz wait n hope n see.......oh life, i look ok,i look perfectly normal n happy but inside, i'm empty.i need someone to fill me. fill me heart.to cheer me up everyday. to smile to me evry morning i wake up from sleep. to say goodnite when i wanna go to sleep. to lend me ears when i need to talk to someone n to lend me words me words when i need some one to advice me.someone who can give me a heart for me to take care of n someone that i can always miss when we're apart. yeah too good to be true but i know somewhere in this world, that person exists but when will that person come?i never know.all i can do is wait.......

another day........

mwahx

~~adam~~

number 1

hurmm...first post!!

not much to say.....may b juz bout me...single, average, simple, hard-hearted, kind hearted, sensitive, strong, fit, cute, n i dont know much more people will say bout me but i'm independent...live on my own n enjoy every single thing that pass me by in my life....i experience ups n downs n i enjoy those times bcoz without all those things i wont b here today writing this blog....why do i do blog?i dont know....may b juz bcoz i like writing n express my own opinion based on my own view n i like it when people confront n argue with me.... win or lose i dont mind as long as i get to argue about something that i think should b argued about i.e whether or not u kill ur enemy.....(juz an example,nothing serious ok)sounds like i'm an argumentative person well can say so as i am so...this is me....i live my life the way i want it.....njoy my life to the limit.....still there are limitation that i hav to follow, i hav my family, my friends, my lecturers, my principles n i'm subjected to country's law....that's life.....so anything more i'll write again....till then.....

mwahxxx,

~~helleccentric~~