stolen.......

STOLEN

Churaliya he (Stolen)

You were my eyes when i couldn't see,
you were my air when i couldn't breathe,
but you always knew what you meant to me,
(yeaah.ah,ah)
You were my strength when i was down,
and you made me humble when i wouldn't bow,
I held on to your promise that you'd be around,
(ah,ah...ah,ah)

Where were you when i was alright,
tell me, did you knew I was alright,
you, left me thinking I'd be alright,
wont you come back to me,
Ohhh..
It's crazy but i'm falling apart,
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred,
It's crazy girl wherever you are,
you stole, my heart

It's crazy but I'm going insane,
feeling lost confused and ashamed,
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain,
you stole, my heart

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,

I was feeling lost in my own world,
neglecting your needs only once girl,
If only we could try again once more,
ohhh..(Ohh..)
Now It's the same sad story that we all know,
how lovers make mistakes watch it all blow,
now i don't wanna be the one to let it all go.... nooo



(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,
(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

No man can live without blood running through his veins,
(through his veins)
and it's hard to remember the summer now here is rain
I don't know how much longer that i can wait
It's a thin line... between love and hate,
Oh-whoa-whoaaaa...

It's crazy but i'm falling apart,
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred,
It's crazy girl wherever you are,
you stole, my heart

It's crazy but I'm going insane,
feeling lost confused and ashamed,
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain,
you stole, my heart

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,
(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,

(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

so this time, what has been stolen? definitely not money, well if money is stolen, i wont b writing to u. car?hurmmm i dont have one, but i my car is stolen, i will go to the police station. it's my
HEART.
how can it be stolen?have i been neglecting it? or may be because i take care of it too much that it rebels. there's no certainty but one thing for sure, my heart is stolen. i know and i'm fully aware that it is slipping away through my fingers but i do nothing to avoid. i let it go. fall into the wrong hand. not that the person is bad or ruthless, but that person is too sweet. so weet and making me feel so good. well i should not complain if it makes me feel good, should i? now here's the catch, this person is someone else's lover. now you guys know. it's never easy to fall for the wrong person. and to be honest, my heart is not stolen, but i hand it to that person. i think he accepts it but not in the way that i wish. hopefully one day soon he'll see more than i am now and by that time, my heart will be stolen in the way i wish it to be by the right person at the right time.......
I PRAY FOR THAT

DENIAL

hurmmmm.....strong word......many people r having this without knowing that they r. i'm one of those who r lucky enough to know that i'm in this state of uncertainty. i always know what i want. i never really care bout what people say or the consequences of my irrational and greedy action to have something that i want. well i cant really call it greedy bcoz i grab the chance that pass by right in front of my eyes while i'm fully energised. so, it's a natural reaction of human being to be competitive and optimist. i am. i always am. it's a bit inhumane but natural. animal instinct that humans adopt and claim it to be theirs.

so what is this denial in me all about? falling for someone. that not wrong. the fact that the person is emotionally attached to someone and that peerson loves the lover so deeply. let's call the person L. so, this L person has a lover which is away (of course somewhere on earth). so i met L n i'm fully aware of L's status. at first i wish it's a total physical affection and temporary pleasure that will go away juz like that by the wind. unluckily, i broke my own rule (well never been stated but i hav my rules). no hang out wif ur physical partner. sigh. people make mistake n it cant b undone. so as i try to move on, not trying to avoid the mistake, i kept on doing it for the past one week. juz in one week. i have developed a thin stupid layer of something close to love. not yet there but almost there. i'm not trying to get there but i wish to b there...somehow.................

so, this thing that keeps me awake is making me sick now. i told L. i let it out of my chest, wishing it will go away juz like water flowing down the drain. smoothly. but it's not simple. i have expectations. n that makes it even more complicated that i expected it to be. COMPLICATED. yes, everyone hates complication but it happens. now it's my turn to swim in it. to get ashore. there's no guaranty i'll b safe but if i struggle a little harder, i might have increased the chance to b safe but on which is another complication for me to look into. arghhhhhhhh complicated, it is. so, L responded very well but not didnt meet my expectation. frustration n embarrassment. no!not embarrassment. i cant get embarrassed for telling how do i feel bout someone. i hav the right to express my preference n feelings towards someone that i feel deserve my attention. (or actually i'm trying to get attention from-denial). this will b over in no time hopefully.

Over and Over
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (Alicia Keys)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (Keyshia Cole)
It’s the way it is


Baby I remember
a time when we were so secure but
Now it’s like December
when you say that I’m so insecure and
I gotta get away
cause’ your making me weak
It’s keeping me trapped (keeping me trapped)
I gotta be a fool
sitting here tryna get that old thing back (thing back oh)
Oh


You use to keep your word
was one who always did what you said
You use to speak to me so sweet
with something caring to say
Oh, you don’t even try no more
Oh, you don’t even care no more


I don't wanna love you
don’t wanna need you
just wanna leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)


It’s like I hate to love ya
a charade we play time after time (time after time)
It's like ya love to see me
confused and a mess I’m losing my mind (I’m losing my mind)
I gotta get away
cause’ your making me weak
It’s keeping me trapped (keeping me trapped)
I gotta be a fool
sitting here tryna get that old thing back (thing back oh)
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh


You use to keep your word
was one who always did what you said
You use to speak to me so sweet
with something caring to say
Oh, you don’t even try no more
Oh, why you don’t care no more


I don't wanna love you
don’t wanna need you
just wanna leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
Hey


LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (La,La,La,La)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (No I don’t wanna here it no more)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (All the lies, Oh)
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa (You, You, You use to)


You use to keep your word (hey)
was one who always did what you said (baby you cared)
You use to speak to me so sweet (so sweet)
with something caring to say (oh)
Oh, you don’t even try no more
Oh, why you don’t care no more


I don't (I don't) wanna love you
don’t wanna (no) need you
just wanna (I wanna) leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (Hey)


I don't (Oh) wanna love you
don’t wanna need you
just wanna (don’t wanna) leave you (I swear)
I just want it to be over (I just want it to be over)
I just want it to be over (Can it be over?)

Over and Over!

this song has not much to do with my situation but somewhere in the lyrics, i dedicate it to L. hope u'r not reading this.....

THIS STATE OF DENIAL WILL END SOON





that's my promise.hopefully i wont break it.




mwahxxxx
adam

........heartless.............

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You know need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know..
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, I won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me


In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night...

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

hurmmmmm where do i start this.....
so many words in the world to describe bout this stupid destructive feeling that keeps me falling apart everytime i think bout it. i wanna have something that i used to have. something everyone wanna have but almost half of them failed and crumble in a very deep idiot n irreparable condition. broken. soon i'll be joining those people. i can avoid it. i should avoid it. i would avoid it. in only i'm wise enough. but i'm too dumb, juz like the others. well everyone is a fool whne it comes to this unconditional thing. yeah unconditional that makes lots of people drowned for the temporary sweetness that only comes for a short moment to kill the people's heart. end up heartless.

i dont wanna be heartless. i'm a heartful person. i'm overflow with affection. i need to share it. i hav to share it. i must share it. but i havent yet found the right person or may be the timing is wrong for the right ones. or there will never be right time for the right ones. or i'm not meant to have it. i think, i'll end up heartless..............

ugly,unpretty and unattractive........

She’s so big hearted
But not so remarkable
Just an ordinary humble girl
Expecting nothing as we’re made to think
It’s a pretty person’s world


But you are beautiful
And you better go show it
So go look again
You gotta be true to your own
If you really wanna go to the top
Do you really wanna win
Don’t believe in leaving normal
Just to satisfy demand

Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly


Well you are fresh
Your face is fabulous
Don’t forget you’re one of a kind
When nobody’s checking the deeds you’ve done
And nobody’s hearing your cries
You make all the fashion statements
Just by dressing up your mind


And if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly
And see the beauty in ugly


Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly
And see the beauty in ugly

When I was 7

They said I was strange

I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same

I asked my parents if I was OK

They said you're more beautiful

And that's the way they show they wish

They had your smile

So my confidence was up for a while

I got real comfortable with my own style

I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same

And we only get judged by what we do

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

So are you

So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared

That I was shorter than everyone there

People made me feel like life was unfair

And I did things that made me ashamed

Cos I didn't know my body would change

I grew taller than them in more ways

But there will always be the one who will say

Something bad to make them feel great

People are all the same

And we only get judged by what we do

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

So are you

So are you

People are all the same

And we only get judged by what we do

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

So are you

So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody

And never realises how it affects somebody

And you bet it won't be forgotten

Envy is the only thing it could be

Cos people are all the same

(The same, the same)

And we only get judged by what we do

(What we do, yeah, yeah)

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then (Yeah, you)

So are you

So are you

People are all the same

(Oh, oh, oh)

And we only get judged by what we do

(What we do, yeah)

My personality reflects me

And if I'm ugly then

(Yeah, so are you)

So are you

So are you

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes

Make you feel unpretty too

I was told I was beautiful

But what does that mean to you

Look into the mirror who's inside there

The one with the long hair

Same old me again today (yeah)

My outsides look cool

My insides are blue

Every time I think I'm through

It's because of you

I've tried different ways

But it's all the same

At the end of the day

I have my self to blame

I'm just trippin

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can't look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

I'll make you feel unpretty too

Never insecure until I met you

Now I'm bein stupid

I used to be so cute to me

Just a little bit skinny

Why do I look to all these things

To keep you happy

Maybe get rid of you

And then I'll get back to me (hey)

My outsides look cool

My insides are blue

Everytime I think I'm through

It's because of you

I've tried different ways

But it's all the same

At the end of the day

I have myself to blame

Keep on trippin

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

I'll make you feel unpretty to(I'll make u feel unpretty too)

Oh oh oh oh oh

Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)

Oh oh oh oh oh

Oh oh oh oh oh (oh)

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

You can buy your hair if it won't grow

You can fix your nose if he says so

You can buy all the make-up

That MAC can make

But if you can look inside you

Find out who am I to

Be in a position to make me feel

So damn unpretty

I'll make you feel unpretty too

100 but not enuff.......

001. Name → adam aldine
002. Nickname(s)→ adam
004. Zodiac sign → capricorn
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary → tadika KEMAS
007. Middle School → SKPJ
008. High School → SMKAW, SMKTM, SESTER
009. College School → KMK,uitm
010. Hair color → black
011. Long or short → short
012. Loud or Quiet → depends
013. Sweats or Jeans → jeans
014. Phone or Camera → phone with camera
015. Health freak → all the time
016. Drink or Smoke? → none
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes
018. Eat or Drink → both
019. Piercings → none
020. Tattoos → none


FIRSTS:

023. First piercing →never
024. First best friend → reen, syaza, ecah, ayu, nolly, Q
025. First award → can't recall
26. First crush → standard 6
027. First pet → miki
028. First big vacation → bangkok, chiang mai, pattaya in a month
030. First big birthday → never(who cares anyway)


CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → butterscotch bread
050. Drinking → plain water
052. I'm about to → sleep
053. Listening to → supermassive black hole
054. Plans for today → go swimming then MP
055. Waiting for → the right one

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → a lot
059. Want to get married? → yes, after 30
060. Careers in mind → supermodel


WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?

068. Lips or eyes → eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
074. Sensitive or loud→ less for both
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → neither both


HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → plenty
081. Ran away from home → no way
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → yeah
083. Killed somebody → if it's innocent
084. Broken someone's heart → unluckily yes
085. Been arrested → never
087. Cried when someone died → yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → always
090. Miracles → sometimes
091. Love at first sight → yes
092. Heaven → yes.
093. Santa Claus → may b
094. Tooth Fairy→ never
095. Kiss on the first date→ yes


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes,
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → nope, but i'm grateful to reach this stage
099. Do you believe in God → 100%
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people→ no






i juz pick this up from my friend's page.....
so the numbering is wrong....
not because i dont know how to count, but i juz want it to be that way(actually too lazy to renumber).

tree

It is a windy afternoon,
The sun is over the moon,
Firmly standing, there you are,
Under the moon, under the star,
Your hands never stopped waving,
Your fingers never stopped growing,
Follow the rhythm of the wind blowing,
You never move, never walk, never step,
Toes in the ground, that’s how you’re attached,
Stormy day, don’t scare you,
Apart of the nature, that’s you,
Green is the sign that you’re strong,
Whatever comes in the way, you hold yourself down,
Thousands of wrinkles on your skin,
Dark, coarse and hideous yet graceful and lovely,
Under your shades, I sit,
The place where lovers come to meet,
Thousand years you live,
Millions of history you watched,
You keep the world spinning,
You keep the circle going,
In autumn you’re sick, in winter you’re dead,
In spring you’re back, in summer you’re blessed.

It’s not easy. Nothing is easy in this life and it will always be so until the end of the world. We are given five senses and some are gifted with six but still we are unable to do things perfectly well. What is wrong with us? Interesting question to be asked but how can we determine the cause is a mystery that we are all still try to find. Is it in you? Or me? Or person next to you who knows the answer? We never know.
This week we played a little game in the class. We had to pair up and one of us will have to cover our eyes. The tables were arranged haphazardly and our partner will be waiting for us across the class. We need to listen to the instruction from our partner to get across the class through the haphazardly arranged tables. It was fun and interesting but at the same time we learn bout using our other senses if we lose any one of the five senses that we have. So, the class was about our senses and I love it because I’m a very sensitive person (at least that’s what I feel).
Well just like other classes before, we had something to do again in this class. We were asked to write a poem describing something that we chose but we cannot mention the name of the thing in our poem. At first, we found it quite hard to write it but as we slowly move on, we managed to write the draft. I chose to write on tree. I managed to finish writing the draft early so I quickly went to show it to Ms. Yates. I think my poem is quite simple and easy to understand (which is so me). Thank God, Ms. Yates had not said that much about my poem except there are a few parts which I have to improve and add some more here and there to make the poem long. She also asked me to add more the characteristic of tree in my poem so that the poem will be more understandable and interesting. I used a lot of personification in the poem because I think, that’s the best way to make my poem is readable and easy to understand. Que struggled a lot to finish the poem and this was my first time to see him working that hard to do assignment and too bad he was criticized badly by Ms. Yates (constructive of course).
I felt happy today because I did well for the poem. Oh! Before I forget, I chose to write about tree because for me, trees are useful and they contribute to people’s life a lot. I wanted to be like the trees. They are always there to help people and they are willing to sacrifice themselves for others benefit. May be I was born as a tree in my previous life. Who knows! =)

i'm a tree.

mwahxxxx

~~adam~~

r we safe?

It's not so easy lovin' me

It gets so complicated

All the things you gotta be

Everything's changing

But you're the truth

I'm amazed by all your patience

Everything I put you through

And when I'm about to fall

Somehow you're always waiting

Your open arms to catch me

You're gonna save me from myself

From myself, yes

You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch

Well some guys have shown me aces

But you got that royal flush

I know it's crazy every day

Well tomorrow may be shaky

But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying

'Cause when I start to crumble

You know how to keep me smiling

You always save me from myself

From myself, myself

You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard

But you've broken all my walls

You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness

Is what I need to make me

A better woman To myself

To myself, myself

You're gonna save me from my

Myself


*Christina Aguilera*






This is a very powerful song to me. I listen to this song over and over again and I never get bored listening to this song. The wordings are just perfect. It is a song that a woman sing to her husband that has made her life better than it was before. She feels safe with the man and she appreciates what he has done for her to make her who she is now.
I know this song is sung by a woman but as a human being, I believe that I have the right to sing it to my loved one who has been there all the time for me to cherish the joy and to share the sadness. It never was and never will be easy to live alone in this world and to have someone who loves us just the way we are, priceless.
To my love, even you do not know how much I love you, but trust me, I will always love you just as much as you love me. ♥

hurmmm........sentimental n romantic....they r juz in me....my close friends(u r one of them reen) said that i can make people melt for me easily....i dont hav to say a word, juz some move that i make is enuf to make people give their heart away to me. i dont know how far is the truth but i never tried...well u know how karma works........i dont want to hurt people bcoz i dont wanna b hurt(even i get hurt many times b4).i dont mind....better 4 me to remain patient n there will always good thing come in my way. yeah good things like good exam result, or good friends, or good allowance from my parents(i'm talking bout u both mom n dad) n good siblings (yeahh all my SISTERS) n good lecturers (even i'm not teacher's pet) n good health n good body figure(i know i need to lose some more weight n work out) n there r so much more good things to come my way.....(hopefully).....

but u know life isnt all about good n beautiful, bear in mind that there will always bad n 'ugly' things to happen in life(GOD take them away from me).

no matter how hard we try to avoid them there r juz there rite in front of us, waiting for us to pick them up. arghhhh i wish i can b safe all the time but even if i have 100 bodyguards on my side (hopefully all of them r hot n hot n hot) still there's no guaranty that i'll b safe from all the bad n 'ugly' stuff.

anyway, life goes on n this is me. hurt n survived n hopefully i will always b so.....

daaaaaaaaa

mwahxxx

~~adam~~

i always KNOW!!!!!!!

I am a boy who knows what he wants in life and at least I won’t regret the decision that I have made.
It was my 22nd birthday last 19th January. One year older I am and I am grateful to the Merciful for giving me another year to live in even I have to go through lots of turbulence. That how life is and should be and will always be and all we can do is to live it to the fullest, our way. It’s been a year of challenge and strives for me last year. I broke up, I dated few people, gain and lose weight, get injured and get healed, and a lot more that I think need not to be listed here. If I were to list those things that have happened to me in years back, I’m going to need to write a novel bout it. “Years of Triumphs and Turbulences”. That does not sound that bad at all. May be one day soon, after I managed to get all my dreams come true, I should write a book on that title. And I’m sure I will have to remember all the things that I have learnt in this class.
No birthday celebration for me and I’m quite puzzled why did not I want to celebrate it. I am not a Mormon, that’s for sure. May be because I have never ever celebrated my birthday and that makes me less interested to celebrate it (last year did not count because my aunt hold a surprise party for me). The worst part is, I don’t know how to celebrate it. My friends asked me to throw a party but I don’t know how to do it. Well I watched ‘My Super Sweet 16” on MTV but that’ll be too much for me to do. Hurmmm it’s ok. I’m going to try to have it next year but at the age of 23, will that be fine? We’ll see how it is going to be. I’m thinking of beach party on my birthday. Yes, beach sounds fun and I love fun stuff and one person that can’t be excluded is Querina (you know who that person is Ms. Yate). He’ll be the party kicker and I’m going to make sure that he’ll be there on that party because I am having a surprise for him. Oh, I love surprises and hopefully he’s going to love it more than I do. =P

well anyway, bday is the last thing that in my list that i wanna celebrate. well it's not i dont appreciate my birth to the world but i juz hav no i dea what to do on my bday. supposedly i had my 21st bday celevration grand and happening but since i broke up wif A, so i didnt celebrate it. how to celebrate bday?may b there is someone who writes a book on that subject. u know 4 a dummy like me, of course there are few more like me( i really wish there are except mormon)hahaahhha.....hurmm i guess i'm juz gonna buy a slice of cake for myself n eat it in my room and sing a bday song for myself......classic me.....alone, homey n eccentric....hey at least i live my life the way i want it.....lame!!!!!!

it's ok.....(to whom did i say that?)hahahahhaaa

my life is mine and no one can ever ruin it.

...............i live the i want so u guys out there(even u'r not reading this blog) don mess with me!!!!!(with a smile)

whAt A wEEk```````

hey,hey, hey.......

long time huh....well been bz with life and all.....too bad...i've left u here unattended...i'll make it up to u ok......all about my eccentric life.....

hari raya!!well it was good i enjoyed it even not to the fullest....i've grown up too much so no more duit raya..that's bad...well it's ok at least i get to gather with all my family members at this very happy moment of our life....mom i love u n i'm sorry for all my wrongdoings all this while....dad i love u too n thanx 4 being understanding bout me n plz this year u need to increase my pocket money...huhuhu to all my sisters i love u guys so much and thanx for always being there for me......to all my friends, i love u guys all so much and this boy will always b eccentric as he was and always is.....to all my readers(if any) thanx 4 supporting me in writing this story about this eccentric boy.....mwahx to all.....

ok.....now this is where the story to start. after a whole week of raya, i'm back to kl.feel so good to be around and cant wait to start my routines all over again(u know what i mean)huhuhu.life is short,njoy it to the fullest ok.being single is one advantage that u have to njoy ur life to the limit n u know the sky is the limit when u'r on ur own. coming back from raya, i went to visit my ex and his mom.we're friends now that's 4 sure.professional. no more hidden feelings.even i still love A but still there's nothing gonna bring me back to A. btw may b i forgot to mention that i'm dating J now.well J is nice but a little small for me.J is very kind hearted n caring.i like that.but we need time to get to know to each other. well time is all i need. btw even i'm dating J, my life has to go on n i will make others' life become even merrier that ever before.....

well u know it's my dream to go to phuket since forever but budget problem holds me back. just my luck on this very lucky week, i was offered to go for a paid vacation in phuket with my ex nad his mom.again just my luck.at first i had to refuse because i ave presentation on the day that they'r going to leave for phuket.sigh.......i was quite devastated but that's how it is.but the luck is still on my side, on the nite that A should be off to phuket, he texted me telling me that his passport has expired and he has to postpone to the next day which i will b able to go.i was so damn shocked that he offered me to go n what more i can say. YES!!!!!!!!that's my answer. no pocket money for me but i just go.i'm not gonna do any shopping there.i said to myself. and the next day, i was off to phuket.lucky me...................

came back from phuket. i had alot to do as i missed 3 day classes already but i managed to put everything under control. i'm a controller but not a control freak ok.friday nite should b happening but too tired for me to go out n have fun(as i had so much fun in phuket already). so i juz stayed at home and do nothing and sleep all nite. the next day, came to my shock that our house was broken in last nite and my fren lost laptop and handphone.too bad for them. thank god that i didnt lose a thing. ........

so saturday, i had nothing to do n i did nothing but online all day long. later that evening i got a call from a friend of mine. guess what?he invited me to go to club wif him n his bf.warghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!it's been al ong time i havent gone to club. he said we're going to MP. i heard bout it n peope said it was damn happening and the crowd r so damn cool. so i just cant say no to it n yup i went clubbing on saturday nite......

what a nite!!!!!!

as i reached MP, all i can see was beautiful view of good looking people all around walking heading to the club. i didnt know what to expect but i just prepare myself for the worse and wish for the best to happen.i was at first quite shy and kinda afraid to go into the dance floor(like there'll b a murder on the dance floor) so my friend pushed me through the crowd and i didnt know whether it was jus my feeling or it was real that i got hundreds of eyes on me....i was terrified but i just make that str8 face and move my body my way. i was thinking of doing my ritual(taking off my shirt my i was dancing) but it seems to me i'm the new boy on the floor so i just remain decent and dance just like usual.but come to my shock that my friend pushed me up the podium.

####PODIUM BOY####

OMG!!!!!

i can see all the people in the club and they were looking at me like i'm an alien.bad!!!i felt so weird but i'm up now so i just dance n dance n dance....then it came the moment i felt so hot and i'm so damn sweating n the only thing that i wanted to do was to take of my shirt n with no hesitation i took off my shirt and move my body.......CRAZILY!!!the crowd cheered for me n i went even crazier....just soon when i got off the podium, people weretrying to approach me.asking for my number,ask my name,where do i stay, with whom did i come and so much more questions that they asked me.i just answer them very nicely.i felt good.and soon at 3a.m i called it a nite....we went home n my heart was still singing dancing inside me.......

WHAT A NITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

beautiful SUNDAY^^^^

mwahx

~~adam~~

long time......

TIME

hey y'all....hurmmm it's been a very long time since i last wrote here...well been so bz with life....not much i can do to make myself more
available to write here but now i by all means making a huge effort to write.....
well where else i can write if not here.....of course other than
writing my long and boring assignment, here is the next destination for me to express what i think i wanna say.....
previously i was so damn bz doing a wedding...it was a great experience...i love it n i wanna do it
again next time...hunting for new project now....other than my study,
n my banquet job n my family, this new thing has given me
a new passion towards what to enjoy in life......yeah obviously i'm single n totally available so not so much
obligaiotns for me like i was b4....obligations to lover....yeah cliche but thing is such....so the wedding...it
was good n fun doing it except the part where i dont get enuf sleep n hav to work so damn hard that made me look like a mummy(well dont try to imagine it) but those bittersweet of it....but after all is done,dissapointment came in the way as the groom cut the payment here n there n made my life become even more miserable n totally damaged.......
again that's what we hav to face.....dissatisfaction........well deal it professionally n pretend like u dont care......lie to urself but sometimes things has to b forgotten n let it go....
so in order to
indulge ourselves, me n my friends plan a trip to penang n terengganu(not really a plan) n we had quite a lot of fun....when i say fun means very very fun.....huh cant wait to have that time off again....hopefully......i hav the chance.....now bout my love life.....well it was not easy,it is not easy n i think it never will.....i hav to admit dating people are kinda hard to do n frustration is a must to happen when it comes to going out with people that we barely know or we juz think that we know that person........lying to ourselves.....i dated this one person...it started like usual from a dating site,we exchanged phone number,texting each other for some time then going out for date hurmmmmm boring!!!!!but that's how it goes.....the difference that i do this time around in this game i call love, that person (ok i name the person F) is not as good as others that i dated b4....good here
is in the aspect of look or to b precise body figure...i dont know, i juz fall for F juz like that...may b the words,attitude,sincerity, or i dont know....but i somehow fall for F even most of the characteristic that i listed for my potentiAl lover is less than 5 in F......weird right this love trhing but is happened.....i had quite an expectation to bring our relationship to the next level bcoz i was so comfortable with F....i was myself....i had fun.....i'm in control.....n i love the feeling......F is definitely a lover material person.....
but again failure came to say hi to me.....juz soon as i established the relationship, things seems to crumble.....we had argument which started small but bcoz of some words, F pissed me off n i juz walked away....so classic me to walk away juz like that but i cant pretend that i'm not hurt.....i'm totally offended n i do what i think the best for me....walk away......chicken but wise
that's
what i call it.....my action....

may b i was
overreacted or too much but juz consider that we weren't meant to b together.....at this very moment, the memory of my ex come to take place n take me to the sky.....fly n yeah not really in reality but i somehow njoy it.....the idea of going back to my ex comes cross into my mind but after a very deep thinking n considering that we've been ex for almost 8 months since then, i sont think it's a good idea....single again....this is definitely will b the longest time for me to b single n available n hot.......yeah hot n single, that's what i am now....a bit arrogant but juz to comfort myself n gain my confidence to love again....
wish i were able to b so bold and daring to go out n date more but at the moment,better to keep them all close as friends n may b i can later decide which one is the best for me, myself n i n that lucky person....
next time i'm gonna make sure that it wont b all about or that person....it will
always b about US>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

TIME

~~helleccentric~~