long time......

TIME

hey y'all....hurmmm it's been a very long time since i last wrote here...well been so bz with life....not much i can do to make myself more
available to write here but now i by all means making a huge effort to write.....
well where else i can write if not here.....of course other than
writing my long and boring assignment, here is the next destination for me to express what i think i wanna say.....
previously i was so damn bz doing a wedding...it was a great experience...i love it n i wanna do it
again next time...hunting for new project now....other than my study,
n my banquet job n my family, this new thing has given me
a new passion towards what to enjoy in life......yeah obviously i'm single n totally available so not so much
obligaiotns for me like i was b4....obligations to lover....yeah cliche but thing is such....so the wedding...it
was good n fun doing it except the part where i dont get enuf sleep n hav to work so damn hard that made me look like a mummy(well dont try to imagine it) but those bittersweet of it....but after all is done,dissapointment came in the way as the groom cut the payment here n there n made my life become even more miserable n totally damaged.......
again that's what we hav to face.....dissatisfaction........well deal it professionally n pretend like u dont care......lie to urself but sometimes things has to b forgotten n let it go....
so in order to
indulge ourselves, me n my friends plan a trip to penang n terengganu(not really a plan) n we had quite a lot of fun....when i say fun means very very fun.....huh cant wait to have that time off again....hopefully......i hav the chance.....now bout my love life.....well it was not easy,it is not easy n i think it never will.....i hav to admit dating people are kinda hard to do n frustration is a must to happen when it comes to going out with people that we barely know or we juz think that we know that person........lying to ourselves.....i dated this one person...it started like usual from a dating site,we exchanged phone number,texting each other for some time then going out for date hurmmmmm boring!!!!!but that's how it goes.....the difference that i do this time around in this game i call love, that person (ok i name the person F) is not as good as others that i dated b4....good here
is in the aspect of look or to b precise body figure...i dont know, i juz fall for F juz like that...may b the words,attitude,sincerity, or i dont know....but i somehow fall for F even most of the characteristic that i listed for my potentiAl lover is less than 5 in F......weird right this love trhing but is happened.....i had quite an expectation to bring our relationship to the next level bcoz i was so comfortable with F....i was myself....i had fun.....i'm in control.....n i love the feeling......F is definitely a lover material person.....
but again failure came to say hi to me.....juz soon as i established the relationship, things seems to crumble.....we had argument which started small but bcoz of some words, F pissed me off n i juz walked away....so classic me to walk away juz like that but i cant pretend that i'm not hurt.....i'm totally offended n i do what i think the best for me....walk away......chicken but wise
that's
what i call it.....my action....

may b i was
overreacted or too much but juz consider that we weren't meant to b together.....at this very moment, the memory of my ex come to take place n take me to the sky.....fly n yeah not really in reality but i somehow njoy it.....the idea of going back to my ex comes cross into my mind but after a very deep thinking n considering that we've been ex for almost 8 months since then, i sont think it's a good idea....single again....this is definitely will b the longest time for me to b single n available n hot.......yeah hot n single, that's what i am now....a bit arrogant but juz to comfort myself n gain my confidence to love again....
wish i were able to b so bold and daring to go out n date more but at the moment,better to keep them all close as friends n may b i can later decide which one is the best for me, myself n i n that lucky person....
next time i'm gonna make sure that it wont b all about or that person....it will
always b about US>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

TIME

~~helleccentric~~

what am i????

i wonder......what am i????

hey, i 'm so much alive. i'm so damn loving this skin. i cant wish for more than this. i'm blessed, thank God. Alhamdulillah.

as i'm living this life for more than two decades since then, i think i met quite a big number people n i believe, people r born to b different from each other. like me, i'm eccentric, plain, average n wuteva.....well there r so many type of people out there that has so mch thing to learn bout them. like native people, urban, rural, teenagers, elderly, kids n a lot more to b listed n it takes foever for us to understand every single person on this earth. like me myself, a teenage.student.working student.degree student.a son.only son in the family.rural family.too much to classify bout me...i can b in many groups that belongs to the society. so actually what am i?huhuhu i myself r now wondering what am i. i lived on this earth more than 21 years but still cant figure it out what am i.people out there, do u know what u r?hav u ever wondered why r u all here?what should we b doing?when should we act?when will we b terminated?what should we achieve in our life?i dont know whether these question has ever crossed ur mind but for me, these questions kinda bothering me, well may b not bother but they almost everyday come across my mind n it makes me think bout what is my life worth for. what should i contribute?to whom should i contribute?when should i contribute n most of all when will i b stopped from contributing. life's short but there r too many things to do.sleeping alone need at least 6hours a day.left 18 hours.having meal at least 3 hours in total. working from 8 to 5p.m already 9 hours.left 6 hours. spending time wif family, resting, watching news, entertainment.n that's it.is that life is all about?hurmmm looks like we hav to optimized our time.every single second is too precious to b wasted. not much we can do bout it. so far no device to stop the time but in the future no idea.,ay b there'll b time machine or anti ageing pills that can stop ageing n make people live longer.but there'll b a lot of things will b unbalance.if there r too many people on earth, the space will b very limited.huhhhhhh(sigh)....life is complicated.but we cant sit back n juz follow what life has brought us to.we must at least try to chase the time(dont stop the time coz u can never do so) n accomplish as much thing as u can in ur life si that ur life will b more precious n every day in ur life, u'll hav something to remember. it might b small but still u hav something in a day that makes u think bout it n say to urself, "i made it"........so guys let's start thinking bout what r we, bcoz only that question can make u think of what r u going to do....

start thinking now!!!!!!

mwahxxx

~~adam~~

the next day~~~~

another day......

how's today?well let's start with going to club.well last nite i went to club,yeah it's been a while since i last went there....it's quite good to b there....long time i didnt get such attention or i should say eyes on me....huhuhu...i cant help myself from smiling to those people.they hav this look on their face that makes me feel so amused n it tickles my heart somehow....to put in a word---- 'starved'----i hope u guys understand this...well it't not wrong for me to make them feel good bout themselves,a smile that's all i gave n a little flirtatious look on them.i'm juz being a little notty. i like being notty n that's me. ok done wif that notty part....dance floor is getting more crowded n me n my frenz squeeze through the crowd n we're in.the song was so damn good.it triggered me to go crazy n i almost forgot that my foot is hurt.huhuhu it went crazy n i even got up on the podium. i was overwhelmed n my frenz has gotten out of their mind. no more mr guy next door n no more mr.sweet baby...hihiihi...its funny to see n to experience how can music make people lose control n got out of their mind.well somehow it was enjoyable. i went jogging earlier that evening but i was still able to stand up almost 1 n a half hour dancing non stop like it was my own show in my own world tha i will always call 11th kingdom.fantasy.......

finished clubbing, we went to hav some drinks but unluckily i cant stay for long coz got something to do n i hav to drag not,literally, my fren out of the restaurant n we headed home.arrived at home at 4 n sleep at 5....not much sleep but still hav to wake up at 8 n do this n that n time is 9.30...time to leave for the briefing.hell day i was not required to go for the briefing as i havent registered yetvfor the extra curricular activities.what a waste.my sleeping time n my all time spent there to wait for my frenz.well kinda stupid but it's ok...at least i was there to see som hot stuff parading around the campus n feeling good bout themselves.wuteva!!!!but somehow they deserve to b praised coz they'r so confident with their assets.yeah assets.....guys, live ur life to the fullest.....

single.......boring, alone and ------------- i dont know what more to say bout my single life.sometimes i feel like i enjoy my single life very much but somewhere in my heart i feel like something's missing.yeah something that i call love.care.touch.pamper.something that makes me feel more secured n safe.something that can slow me down in my crazy life.something that makes life worth living everyday.something that i wanna do everyday in my life. something that keeps my feeling occupied.something..................................................................or i should say everything is all bout love.it's not that i dont hav anyone coming to me,in fact i hav people in line coming n begging for me(not to b arrogant or snobbish but fact), but i juz cant accept them.there will always b something that turns me off n makes me tired of searching n yeah, i stop searching now, let fate work for me, if happen for me to love again, i will but when is it?i cant tell.let juz wait n hope n see.......oh life, i look ok,i look perfectly normal n happy but inside, i'm empty.i need someone to fill me. fill me heart.to cheer me up everyday. to smile to me evry morning i wake up from sleep. to say goodnite when i wanna go to sleep. to lend me ears when i need to talk to someone n to lend me words me words when i need some one to advice me.someone who can give me a heart for me to take care of n someone that i can always miss when we're apart. yeah too good to be true but i know somewhere in this world, that person exists but when will that person come?i never know.all i can do is wait.......

another day........

mwahx

~~adam~~

number 1

hurmm...first post!!

not much to say.....may b juz bout me...single, average, simple, hard-hearted, kind hearted, sensitive, strong, fit, cute, n i dont know much more people will say bout me but i'm independent...live on my own n enjoy every single thing that pass me by in my life....i experience ups n downs n i enjoy those times bcoz without all those things i wont b here today writing this blog....why do i do blog?i dont know....may b juz bcoz i like writing n express my own opinion based on my own view n i like it when people confront n argue with me.... win or lose i dont mind as long as i get to argue about something that i think should b argued about i.e whether or not u kill ur enemy.....(juz an example,nothing serious ok)sounds like i'm an argumentative person well can say so as i am so...this is me....i live my life the way i want it.....njoy my life to the limit.....still there are limitation that i hav to follow, i hav my family, my friends, my lecturers, my principles n i'm subjected to country's law....that's life.....so anything more i'll write again....till then.....

mwahxxx,

~~helleccentric~~